OK so my step dad ( my dad as far as I am concerned) passed away in 2007 from a roll over accident. He was alive to see my little sister have all 3 of her children. My grandfather ( his dad) passed away 9 months after he did. He also got to see all 3 of my sister kids born and growing..... It saddens me to think that neither my dad or gpa wont be there to hold our bundle of joy. My point is in my family we believe when you dream of them they are visiting you or giving you closure. Well my dad has been gone 4 years and my gpa 3 and I have yet to have a dream of them untill today. I don't remember all of it but they were redoing a bathroom and they kept arguing with me that they were not dead. THen they went to take some insulation out of the wall and my dad told me it wasn't good for the baby and I needed to step out of the room. THen another slide show effect in the dream he touched my belly and said something which I don't remember. I woke up in tears knowing that they may of sent this little angel to us, but they will never have the chance to hold him or her in the flesh. It saddens me that neither my dad or Tara's father are alive to be grandpa so ultimately our child and future children will not have a gpa. Luckily with my mom having heart failure she will be here for it which I was very worried about. Almost to that 30 mark I was getting worried as my sister's oldest is almost 11 and her youngest is almost 7..... Sad she is fresh 28 and done, tubes tied and I am just starting...
Anyway that was my dream and some of my sadness in this wonderfull journey.
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